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Two and a Half Years Without Grandma, but Who’s Counting?

As per my last post, I’m officially done with school. No more late-night homework marathons or frantically searching in books for answers—just 5–6 days a week behind the chair at the salon. YAY for my business… but also, where did my life go?

Let’s take inventory of what used to be my everything:

  • Houseplants: Once 10, now 3. Do I care? Nope. Years ago I would have. Now if its almost even dying I'll just through the entire pot away.
  • Baseboards: Got cleaned monthly, now just vacuuming them over if any.
  • Wardrobe: I’ve traded cute outfits for scrubs. And honestly? Best decision ever. Past me would’ve fainted at the thought, but hey, scrubs are comfy, practical, and stain-resistant. Who’s the real winner here?

I’ve checked off so many goals, but now that the stress is gone, I’m left wondering: what’s next? Grandma’s not here to cheer me on or swoop in to help. It's solely a me thing. 

I'm at the point of achieving all your dreams, only to realize you forgot to dream up new ones.

Now I understand the 2 year, 5 year, 10 year goal plan. 

Stella. She’s 10 now, which means we’re creeping toward the teenage years. Soon, she’ll be 18, and I’ll still be young enough to have an entire new life, wait that sounds mean, but I can't be that mom that won't let go of the fact my kid is now an adult and has her own life. I won't be that anxiety ball of an empty nester. I have to have my own life too right?

The Great Life Questions:

  1. Do I sell the Barbies or keep them for nostalgia?
  2. Move to a smaller home or embrace the chaos?
  3. Get a dog or just admit I’m not ready for another living thing to take care of?
  4. Drop $5K on new floors or embrace saving the money because lets be real its not a need only a want right?
  5. Become a Pinterest DIY queen or stick to binge-scrolling instead?

Right now, my solution is to SAVE and INVEST. I’m maintaining the yard like a suburban superhero, fixing things like I’m auditioning for HGTV, and aiming for early retirement. Why? Because this grind isn’t it. High school dropout me didn’t sign up for this level of routine.

Here’s the reality:

  • No more off-roading.
  • No more music.
  • No more crafting.
  • No more shooting.

Who even am I anymore?!

But I’m not giving up. I’m sitting here on this random lady’s front porch while Stella’s at her horse lesson, thinking: “Something’s gonna click.” Until then, it’s leftovers for dinner, in bed by 8, and back to my oh-so-thrilling routine tomorrow.

Daily Schedule of Excitement:

  • 6 AM: Wake up.
  • Shower.
  • Unload dishes like a domestic goddess.
  • Make breakfast (not cereal because I’m fancy).
  • Coffee (finally something good).
  • Pack lunches, drop off Stella, work, home.
  • Work out (reluctantly).
  • Dinner, clean up, shower, watch something mildly entertaining, sleep.
  • Repeat.

It's giving mid-life routine and I am not for it. AT. ALL

One thing’s for sure: this isn’t an end era. 3,2,1, new goals loading.

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